Sigh! I'm not really sure what to do anymore, well I know what I have to do but I don't want to. Why you ask, because I'm scared of the pain, scared of losing something great. Hard to let go of something so great in your life when you know you it's the best choice to make at the time. Even if it's only for a little while it's still hard but you don't want to toy with gods plans... Maybe the darkside will become blue skies again!